Friday, July 9, 2010

Blahs? Where is the inspiration?

Today's Truth

Blah, Blah, Blah, Blah, Blah...Man oh man...have I had a case of the Summer blahs.  Don't mistake me, I have been busy, really, doing something, all the time.  When I came to the realization that I was feeling like I wasn't doing everything "I was supposed to be doing," I knew it was time for reassessment and inspiration.  Great.  My self-questioning led to the bigger question of "where is the inspiration?"  But then, another question popped up, "for what?"  So now I had two questions...where is the inspiration and what would I do with it anyway.  Does any of this sound familiar to you?  Jeez! Or, as my good friend would say, "Cheesits."  I don't why, but that is so hilarious to me.

Assessment
I haven't written my blog in a few weeks and it is something I really like to do.  It is important to me to write it and share it and consistency is one of my strengths.  Hmmm.

I haven't really taken the time for friends and family that I usually do (sorry, Mom; sorry, Sis; sorry friends).  I love spending time and sharing ideas with friends and family and they usually end up enjoying the experience, too.  So, Hmmm.

I haven't been reading either -- and if there is one thing I enjoy most and put at the top of my list -- it's reading.  Hmmm.

So, "DCR," I ask myself, "what the heck have you been doing?  Do you see how assessment can lead to a downward spiral? Yeah.

I talked to my ambitious, ever-successful and amazingly resilient and beautiful sister, and as usual, she had the voice of reason and shared it with me.  She is really good like that -- we all need that kind of buddy -- you know, someone who sees it how it is, but somehow takes your side and makes you feel really good about yourself.  What would we do without the people who love us enough to do that?  Thanks, sweetie.

In our conversation she pointed out all the things I had been doing as positive, reasonable and worthwhile and put the best spin on it.  OMG, thank you.  I came to the realization when you have the deep-bend blahs (not so good) and are just wondering and wandering, you don't need a swift kick, you need positive re-enforcement.  She helped me see there was a reason I felt the way I did, (a valid reason, by the way) and I could putter around it or address it, settle it and get back in stride.  I needed to embrace a new course (of thought) and let the old one go and most importantly -- allow life to unfold on this new course.  Goodbye, old pattern.  Goodbye.

I am in that funny place, you know the place, when you are in transition and just waiting?   She helped me realize that it is an OK place to be -- just drive through it slowly and don't park.  We all have times when we look wherever we are looking and just don't see anything.  That is a big clue that it is time to catch your breath; revel in the down time and relax. Take it as it comes and embrace it, find the good in each day and know this stretch of time is temporary.  What you don't want to do is let the transition period get you in a twist. Please take my word for it -- stay positive and talk to people who love and support you.  It helps, it inspires and actually, it gets you out of the blahs and into the next step.  

So, what have I been doing?  I now realize I have had quality time with my grandchildren for the first summer, ever!  I reconnected with old friends I hadn't seen in quite awhile and made several new ones.  New art has been developed and I participated in a new business venture.  I have been swimming everyday and the exercise is great.  I completed several outdoor projects that have been hanging around too long.  I entertained -- it was a fabulous dinner and great conversation -- will be doing it again soon.  All of these are positive and very worthwhile.  

The other night, my husband and I were sitting outside looking at the stars.  I looked at him, and said, "You know, I love our life."   That one sentence, sums it up.  Days come and go, things, jobs and people come and go.  We have seasons to our lives and each one is valuable -- a little jewel. 

When the bad blahs hit and you begin to question yourself -- take it from me, talk to someone who inspires you -- not someone who will tell you what you need to do.  Talk to someone who loves you enough to be honest with you but still champions your viewpoint.  I hope you have someone like that in your life.

With respect and affection,
Diana           




 

8 comments:

  1. Michael MastagniJuly 9, 2010 at 8:50 PM

    We love your life too. Our friendship during our Powder River years was pure gold. We valued it and together we polished it and remarked on it. We have Rice mementos everywhere in our home. You are never far from sight even though you are living in Bakersfield, miles away. Nancy and I send you and Thad a huge hug and we know about blahs...they are insidious because they seem to come from within when most of the time, they are like powder which has drifted from an unknown source...and when recognized as something we don't need or want, we sweep them away and become brand new again. May that fire which burns within keep burning bright for you and your family.

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  2. Dear Mike and Nancy,
    Thank you for your kindness and sweet comments. Thad and I so enjoyed the time we had together as neighbors and keep those cherished memories fresh! Thank you for the hug and we are sending one right back. The blahs are swept and have become nothingness, dust in the air. We love you and the fire burns brightly for all of us.

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  3. Hello my beautiful, wise and always inspiring Aunt.

    I was recently at an event where I heard this saying:

    "When one door closes another one always opens. But it's the hallways that are a bitch."

    I personally know (and I know you know my own transitions going on) that the time between when one part of our journey stops and the next one begins is often challenging because we don't know.

    All of us drivers are excellent with a mission and a goal. I always feel pretty aimless and unmotivated in the hallway. =-)

    Love you! Melanie

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  4. As your art is about to take another leap, I applaud you, Diana. I have heard so many positive comments, it's amazing. The spirit (Spirit") you employ comes out at every turn and I am grateful for the artistic "ride." There really is never a "down time," only reflection, pause and retrospection. Well worth the wait, well worth the "pause."

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  5. DCR, you ARE my inspiration . . .

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  6. Dear Melanie,
    Oh, those hallways! I appreciate that statement so much. I am learning the pause and reflection part -- it is very strengthening. It is about trusting, also. I know you know the part about gratitude that turns into grace and grace into clear direction and resolution. I admire you very much. Love, Diana

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  7. TLR,
    You...you are so wise. Thank you for your inspiration, support and unfailing positive perspective -- I appreciate it very much. What a ride we have -- amazing. I'm grateful and learning to understand and enjoy the pause. Love, Diana

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  8. Patti,
    Thank you! I am so honored. You are an incredible inspiration. I love how you have such integrity and speak so honestly. You have that can do spirit that we all want! You help me figure it all out all the time -- I appreciate that a great deal. Love, Diana

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